Poem: Hope
The guilt is palpable.
I should apologize for what was ugly and depraved.
I remember and think:
They never saw it coming, this sad damaged girl
With the broken heart and the bad will.
I look up now.
Why do we do what we do?
All these years later I still blame you for
breaking me in, taking what you wanted
making me want to love you anyway.
I shudder now with helplessness.
A toddler, really. Wishing for mercy
while knowing we are doomed.
I should apologize for what was ugly and depraved.
I remember and think:
They never saw it coming, this sad damaged girl
With the broken heart and the bad will.
I look up now.
Why do we do what we do?
All these years later I still blame you for
breaking me in, taking what you wanted
making me want to love you anyway.
I shudder now with helplessness.
A toddler, really. Wishing for mercy
while knowing we are doomed.
2 Comments:
your a wonderful writer.
i could read this one poem over and over.
it so perfectly describes how i'm feeling lately.
thank you so much, emily...
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